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Chapter 23
2011.02.05. 12:08
Chapter 23
He checked the plate with the number on the big house’s fence and just stood there for a few minutes, taking deep breaths to calm down. A nice breeze played with his blonde curls as he was just staring at the house lost in thoughts. He’d arrived to Santa Barbara a few hours ago. After talking to Chris – and later Dave – and agreed that they’ll work together again, Kessy arranged a place with a nice studio in this city. He’d never heard about Santa Barbara before, but knew that Jonathan chose this place because it was closer to Mexico where their new clients resided and was cheaper for them to take a flight to here than to New York City.
Even so Mart felt a bit unsure and not just because of this unfamiliar place. He knew that Dave will be there too and he didn’t know how to act around him. It’s been a while since they have parted in London and Martin had doubts. ‘What if he had moved on?’ he thought and forced himself to go to the intercom and ask someone to let him in.
Both Christian and Dave were there with a few other people and greeted him as an old friend and he hugged them back, but his cheerful expression wasn’t honest entirely. He noticed the slight tension between him and Dave as they chatted with the others and Martin didn’t know if he wanted to be left alone with the singer or not.
Until that moment came, he quietly observed Dave. He wanted to be sure whether his suspicions were true or not. What if he betrayed him? What if his macho attitude surfaced again and Dave boasted with him as his latest “trophy” in his collection? His hands fisted from this thought and his eyes jumped to Christian, searching for any signs that’d help Mart close out this possibility. And then he saw it after an ambiguous note Chris made… his eyes flashed in a certain way and in that moment the smile froze on Martin’s face and his heart sank. ‘He knows it…’ he thought and pressed his lips together.
He quickly excused himself and walked out of the studio. He went upstairs to the room he got in the house and banged the door shut.
“Fuck!” he cried out in frustration and started pacing in his room.
“What got into him?” Chris looked at his frowning friend.
“Dunno. Maybe I should check it out.”
“Sure. Go…” Chris scratched his arm absentmindedly then turned to Gus, one of their technicians.
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“Can I come in?’ Dave asked after knocking and poking his head into the room that felt immediately chilly for him.
“Whatever.”
Dave frowned and closed the door behind him. He was confused as he folded his arms in front of his chest. “What’s wrong, Mart? You seem so distant…”
The other man didn’t turn around yet and stayed silent for a minute, his anger boiling up inside of him. “He knows, doesn’t he?” he whispered and tried to stay calm, but the tension was clear in his voice.
“Who and what?”
“Don’t play stupid, Dave!” he turned around to face him “Chris and about us!”
“Oh…” he said in surprise and frowned again. Suddenly the fact that he told his best friend about his feelings made him uneasy seeing Martin’s reaction.
“Well?”
“Yes, he knows. I told him. But I don’t see the problem in it…”
“Oh yes, I was sure about that. And? Did you have a nice laugh about the naïve blonde guy you’d managed to seduce, huh?” he stepped towards Dave, the anger now clear on his face and his green eyes were as sharp as a knife.
“What the fuck are you talking about?! It was nothing like that!” he looked at him wide-eyed. ‘What the fuck got into him?’ he thought and suddenly it felt hard to swallow.
“Then what was it like?” he hissed. He knew that maybe he shouldn’t act like this, but the frustrations of the last few months desperately wanted to come out and in the moment Dave stepped into his room, he became the focus of Mart’s anger. “Did you really have to betray me and what we had?!”
“What the fuck?! Are you crazy?!” Dave lost his patience too and dug his fingers into his own upper-arms. “I… I just needed someone’s advice, that’s all! He understood it! You know Christian, you can’t find a man more trustworthy than him! He’d never tell anyone what I told him! He’s my best friend! Why can’t you see this?” he shouted at the end.
Mart didn’t answer just huffed and turned around to look out into the garden.
“Look…” Dave started on a softer tone and walked a bit closer “I felt so… lost after I’ve left you there in London… I needed someone who knows about what I’m going through. I needed some support” he lowered his head. It was hard for him to tell this, but he was suddenly afraid and desperate.
“At least you had someone…” Mart noted coldly “I was alone. Rejected, left behind.”
Dave closed his eyes and a sharp needle of pain pricked into his heart. Did he screw everything up?! “No, Martin. You are stronger than me” he shook his head and gently put his hand on Mart’s shoulder from behind, squeezing it lightly. “Why can’t you see that?”
The blonde man closed his eyes and tried not to shudder from the warm touch. What was going on?
“I… I was afraid. So afraid that you’ve moved on” he whispered hoarsely and swallowed hard. Here, he said it.
“Fuck, baby, look at me!” Dave quickly turned him around and took his face into his trembling hands. “How could I do so? There was not a single day when I haven’t thought about you, us.”
“Are you telling the truth?” Mart asked on a careful tone and looked into the gentle and somewhat frightened grayish-green eyes.
“Don’t be so cold to me, babe. It breaks my heart” Dave nodded and ran his thumb on Mart’s cheek. He didn’t really know what was going on in his lover’s head or how he felt about him, but he was frightened that he can lose him if he’s not careful. Because he already knew that he was in love with Martin. But looking into the observing snake-like eyes made him unsure. He couldn’t look behind them, the blonde man didn’t let him, he kept his secret and Dave could only hope that one day he’ll show or tell it to him.
“Sorry. I had to be like this in the last few months” he looked aside.
“It’s okay. It was hard for both of us, me thinks” he put a hand back on Mart’s shoulder. “But… if you felt so alone then… why haven’t you talked to Trix or Justine?”
“Well… they called a few times and I went down to the club, but…” he looked away again “… things weren’t the same without you…” he faltered out.
Sadness flashed in Dave’s eyes and he just pulled Mart closer with a sudden move and pressed his lips against his opposite. After a minute spent with exchanging soft kisses he looked into Mart’s slightly dizzy eyes and said softly: “But now we are here. We are free. We are together, aren’t we?” he asked at the end in an insecure tone that Martin didn’t fail to notice.
“Yeah” he breathed with a faint smile and pulled Dave back by his nape for a passionate and somewhat desperate kiss. Even if they had not much time now, it felt so good to be in Dave’s strong arms and he just wanted to let this feeling melt the ice around his heart.
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Dave felt happy that they could clear this misunderstanding. And yes they were here, they were happy, they calmed down and started working on the new project that day but then it dawned on him that they were really here – far from their families and the dangers they could mean! They were here in this beautiful place – alone. It was like a vacation in Heaven – all they could wish for. They were free for a while. But… what should they do with this new freedom? How to approach it? How to use their time together? Where to go from where they had left their relationship in London? What will be the next step?
Dave was full of questions and doubts even if he was happy to finally see his blonde lover again. He knew by now that Chris and Kessy – especially Kessy – manipulated things and he was grateful for them, of course. They were in a brand new situation now and Dave wasn’t sure how to handle it. How to handle this freedom. It was good though that that Martin was here, but… what now?
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