Part 2

Was this a mistake? Is this going to work? How will this going to work? What the hell did they do? Will this ruin their close friendship?

These and many more such questions were running their circles in Nergal's restless mind as the digital clock's numbers turned to 3.16 am and he was just staring at the ceiling. Dorota was sleeping soundly right next to him, her back towards him.

That was the other thing... What to do with her? He loved her, she was a fantastic woman, but he felt that they were starting to drift apart. Should he do something about it? Should he fight for the relationship he has with his fiancé? Or should he let it go? So she could go and live her life... maybe with the guy Nergal suspected she had met while he was in the hospital?

Truth be told, he really wasn't angry at her. To some degree he understood her – if it was true. He wasn't the easiest person to love and live with, he knew. Also knew his flaws and was far from a saint. But he would never forget what she did for him since he was rushed into the hospital and diagnosed. She was among the first who offered her bone marrow to save him and stuck with him even before he stepped on the road of recovery... Not many would do that and for all that he was grateful. But also understood that maybe she needed a break from all that to breathe.

Either way... now things got more complicated and Nergal wasn't sure this was the right path to go down on. Because someone will definitely get hurt. And he didn't want to hurt two very important people in his life. Namely, Dorota and Tomasz.

He loved them both, but while things were... okay with his fiancé, everything was new and fragile with Orion. And Nergal knew that behind the calm big mountain look there was a heart of gold which could get hurt badly if he fucked this up. But maybe he already fucked it up... What if he just loved the idea of a relationship with Tomasz? What if hiding from everyone will backfire? Should he live in a lie more than necessary? Because yes, they would keep their... thing... a secret from the public. But should he keep cheating on and lie to Dorota too? She wouldn't deserve it. And should they keep the band and their families in the dark too?

And what if he got sick again? He didn't want to put either Dorota or Tomasz through hell like that again...

But he just loved what they did at the gym and already wanted a repeat and more... So much more... He felt terrible now.

"Fuck..." he whispered into the darkness while rubbing his face with a hand then sighing from all the complicated questions and possibilities his mind kept coming up in the last long hours.

Maybe he should just dance back now while less damage can be done. Later it would certainly ruin everything... maybe for everyone...

Meanwhile Tomasz was still sitting in his small home studio and playing his bass or electric guitar in turns. Smoking one cigarette after another. Just repeating everything they did with Nergal at the gym. Every small gesture and every word shared. And of course he’s been painfully over-analyzing it all.

"It won't work," he said that to the silence that was weighing on him for the last few minutes while he was just holding his bass motionless, staring at the black window like a mirror to his messed up soul.

Nergal... loves the public. They couldn't keep it a secret for long. Or he would get caught up with someone else with time... Or in many of his projects... There's his fiancé... And the haters. He should focus on getting better and recovering fully.

That's it... That will be his weapon. ‘Cause it wouldn't work out anyway... In the morning they meet there, in the very studio where the great Orion decided he will be the chicken again...

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And morning came way too early… Once Dorota kissed him goodbye to go to meet up with her manager at the label, Nergal was just sitting on the edge of the bed, hair still damp from the shower he took.

He had to get ready and face Orion in the studio. It was scary as fuck as he didn't know what would happen or what he should say... He felt too riled up and tired at the same time for this. But he couldn't hide forever. He was going to be a bit late already.

After five more minutes just sitting there, he popped in his meds, finished his smoothie and quite literally forced himself to get dressed and get going.

The trip was waaaay too short to Orion's home studio. And sadly no one put suddenly twenty more blocks between him and his destination. So with a sigh and dark expression on his slim and a bit still hollow face, he walked in in his hoodie and didn't let himself stop until he closed the door behind him and turned to face his long-time friend (and much more)...

Tomasz, as he never left the studio, was already making coffee and tea for them to have in the jamming sessions. He rather kept his mind empty. At dawn, at that moment he spoke the words out into the silent room, it was done.

Like magic... 'as I speak, I create'. He was always very cautious with what he said out loud. He was going to dance back on what happened between them the day before and was going to try to be… diplomatic about it.

His forced calmness with which he kept reassuring his analytical mind faded in a second though when Nergal suddenly stood before him and had a very serious, almost painful expression on his face.

"Hi there. I made coffee... So..." he cleared his throat. The situation was very clear. He wasn't the only one changing his mind over this... "You go first... I see you are very determined…" he just said that low and calm, staring into the gray eyes.

Nergal immediately saw on Orion that he put two and two together so there was no use in trying to delay the inevitable talk...

Pulling his hood off, he took a deep breath, nodded and looked back into the brown eyes which were still warm despite the fact that Nergal thought he saw some deep sadness in them too.

"I'm sorry... I've been up all night thinking about yesterday... and I think we should reconsider this 'us' thing. Even if I loved every second of it, this might be a bad time to start something. You know I love you very much, Orion, but the situation is clearly very fucking complicated. I mean... because of the band, the upcoming album, the tour, Dorota and my health too. I just... don't want to hurt or use you more than I already did..." he said, feeling himself as bad and lost as he looked. "But I'd like to hear your thoughts too, because I value your opinion more than I usually show," he chuckled shortly and dry. It was true, though. The big wise mountain usually gave him very good advice. It wasn't Tomasz fault that Nergal's hotheadedness often suppressed those helping words.

The big man pressed his lips together and nodded folding his arms before his chest. "I was here all night and thinking too. I love you very much too. And if till now it was like that, now it won't change. But I agree on that you need to heal and get back to our normal chaotic musician life," he said calm and slow. Never looking away from Nergal's eyes. "I would want an 'us' as I am not the hooking up type. And I realized that probably the reason why we never got together even if the spark was there was that in that small but major thing we are very different. It may work out, sure... But now you and your mental and physical well-being is more important for me. And for the band also."

"Thank Satan, because I was very scared this would fuck up our close friendship. I don't want to ever lose you, Orion. You are my best friend, my confidant and all that sappy shit, you know," he smiled up at him, hopeful that this really wouldn't ruin everything. But the determination in Tomasz's eyes reassured Nergal that he meant it.

"Yes, we are different regarding that..." he agreed as it was true, even if it kinda made Nergal feel a bit bad about himself. He knew that when Orion was with someone then he was only with that person as he was a big romantic under the surface. And Nergal could fantasize being with him like that, but in his current situation with a fiancé it was definitely not an option to be monogamous. So... another reason added to the list of why they shouldn't tangle themselves into this relationship.

Even if Nergal's tired mind was full of thoughts and he felt like shit – and somehow as if he was letting Orion down. But he forced another smile onto his bearded face. "Thank you for understanding. I truly appreciate and want to focus on fully recovering and getting back in shape too. I have big plans for the band. I want to work full force again."

***

Many months have passed since that talk between them in the small studio. Many things happened, too.

For one, Dorota has left Nergal. She waited and supported the recovering man until he was strong enough, like a good friend. But the engagement and the love between them faded away and she found someone new.

That morning when the two men agreed on not continuing to further explore their feelings for each other, left Tomasz a little sore after all. He felt that Nergal accepted what he said too easily. Of course, what both said was very logical and all... but logic and feelings usually doesn't work well together…

He had dived into work. Even waking up his old other band from the long slumber and put together many new songs. For Behemoth as well and after all the work, now they were about to give the first show after the long, forced break.

Of course things were busy on Nergal's end too during these months. He made himself busy with spending a lot of time at the gym working out, doing yoga and trying to pay more attention on a healthier diet. He had to get into shape to be able to fully recover and stand the long exhausting tour too.

Dorota leaving hurt him more than he thought it would, but he didn't show it that much – not even to Tomasz. Getting used to living without her again took some time, but it gave Nergal more time to work on the new songs, the record, give interviews and he took part in organizing the tour too. His check ups showed good results too so when his doctor gave him the green light to getting back on the road, he couldn't have been more excited. He felt full of energy and ready to take on the world again.

Though no matter how well he hid his feelings, he still struggled around Orion, but who could blame him? He was just... majestic and gorgeous inside-out. He also supported Nergal a lot and he tried to be there for his friend too when needed, though Tomasz often buried himself into his own projects.

But now... now they were back! The stage and the audience welcomed him back and Nergal finally felt like being at home... Feeding off the energies of the crowd and the music and giving his all in return. It was like drifting away into another dimension, in a way like a religious experience of his own body and mind. He could feel the music, the band, the audience and they were all pulsing together with the universe and their shared consciousness. It was beautiful and cathartic. He lived for this. He was born for this and was going to enjoy every last second of it now that he knew with certainty that life was very damn short...

Playing on stage was a spiritual thing for Orion, too. He loved to play, loved to growl and sing, loved to put on that persona the band's image needed for the theater.

The crowd was perfect and they felt like they haven't even had those few years long break from being on the road.

The tall man had his hair in a tight shorter ponytail. Earning the title of the Ogre and Orc from the others. Both were wild warrior creatures that he could identify with on stage.

His eyes kept going back to the front man. For how Nergal was doing on the first gig since all. And he left his eyes on him because the small man was even more... dramatic and theatrical and energetic than before. And those needs for Nergal started to be awakened too...

Nergal was in his element, getting high on the wild and raw energies of the awesome crowd too and it was getting better and better with each song. At times he walked back to drink and share a few looks and grins with the others, but otherwise he stayed in his role as the "ceremony master" of their wild show.

Even so, he managed to steal a few long glances of the gorgeous big guy holding up his bass guitar with those thick and long thighs. Nergal always loved how much Orion could get lost in music too. The paint on his face and muscular arms only adding to the picture of the wild warrior. His roars and growls gave some nice shivers down Nergal's spine, urging him to give more too.

It was the perfect comeback for which everyone had to wait for years. But it was so worth it...

Even after the show at backstage while they cleaned up and changed back to their normal clothes while joking, Nergal was high as fuck. And his eyes kept going back to Orion each time he laughed, showing off his dimples and little laughing wrinkles, the sound itself stroking Nergal's insides like silk. Damn, in this elevated state it was harder to control himself and his flaming up urges which he thought he managed to bury deep... Apparently, he was wrong and was sure that Orion noticed it already, too.

"We have to celebrate this back at the hotel!" he suddenly announced with a huge grin. "First round is on me!"

Tomasz was not sure about the drinking part. But he was just probably too cautious about Nergal. And himself...

As the first then the second round of beer and shots were passed around in the hotel room of Inferno, their drummer, adding to the after show high, Orion found his eyes feasting on the hyper laughing and storytelling front man more and more.

He was not the hooking up type... But damn he was sure now his whole being signaled 'Fuck me already' to Nergal... And he didn't even try to do anything against it...

Nergal loved to talk and share stories with these guys, but what he loved even more were the looks he caught from Orion just when a pleasant buzz was starting to form for him from the drinks. He laughed a tad bit later than expected when Inferno said something funny, but honestly, Nergal got more and more distracted by those looks.

They stoked his hunger for the big man more and more and after the third round he announced that he was tired and was ready to hit the shack. No one questioned it as they all had an eventful day and it was getting late – and also probably because they thought Nergal was more mindful about himself after his recovery.

Well that... and he wanted to go mountain climbing... The only question was if the mountain would go to him...

With one last meaningful look at Orion as he walked past him, the singer left Inferno's room to go into his own.

After that very promising look from Nergal, the only thing on Orion's mind was whether it would be too obvious if he just rushed after the singer at once? And does he care about it if it was?

Well finishing off his beer sure helped him decide. Because with that gone, he had no other reason and time to hang around. So, ignoring the dirty smirks and sudden whispering between their guitarist and drummer, he quietly sneaked out of the room.

Nergal's room was three doors away, and forcing his mind to not start to doubt anything, he just knocked quietly while chewing on his lower lip.

Already barefooted and only in a pair of black sweatpants, Nergal looked towards the door and quickly drank the last sip of his wine and coke he made for himself while waiting. It seemed the waiting was finally over...

He quickly made the dirty smirk vanish from his face – more or less – and opened the door. One look at Orion's face told him everything he needed to know so without wasting more time, he pulled the big man into his room by his T-shirt and pulled him down for a hungry kiss without thinking or ruining it with more words.

It was so... perfect... Orion wrapped the shorter man in his long arms and kissed him back moaning already. Just driven by his need and instincts he suppressed for so long.

The door somehow closed behind them and he let his big hands grip on the lean little muscles that built on the more healthy man. Damn he wasn't afraid to break him anymore for sure. He wanted to do so much and most importantly allow now Nergal to do so much to him...

This raw need and hunger for Orion has been boiling in Nergal for so long and now he could finally unleash it on the other man. Meeting no resistance, he kissed him back hard and needy, already tugging that damn tee upwards on the muscular upper-body, as much as the tight hug allowed it.

Lust slammed hard into his guts, making his cock come alive already, the familiar scent and presence of this gorgeous man filling his every sense.

"Take it off!" he urged Orion, finally breaking their all teeth and tongue kiss. He was so fucking impatient that it made the blood drum in his ears and his vision blur a bit, his world narrowing down on the huge man in front of him. Of course, his fingers weren't restless either, they went down to unbuckle Orion's belt and open his pants.

Panting loud already, Orion pulled off his tight tee and had to smirk as the ongoing pun about "Orion's belt" has been around them for years. "Your eyes turn green when you're hungry," he purred on his deep voice, his hand caressing the more toned chest and shoulders of the other man. "Now they're green too... It's beautiful…" he breathed and held one of Nergal's wrists and pushed it into his opened pants, moaning low and attacking the sweet lips again.

Nergal just loved the other's panting and that smirk confirmed to him that they thought of the same joke. The compliment made the smaller man's smirk turn softer and maybe he even blushed too. Not that he paid much attention to that as his hand could finally hold that beautifully hard dick again.

Now it was Nergal's turn to groan into their kiss while his fingers were pumping the hard meat lazily under the opened pants. Fuck, he missed this!

"How do you want it?" he panted into their kiss, his other hand roaming all over the hard muscles admiringly.

Orion put his palms on the warm skin of Nergal's back, pressing him slightly to his own body and feeling around the shoulder blades and the curve of the lower back.

Laying his forehead inn the crook of his man's neck, he just wanted to feel. Enjoying the exploring hand on his body while breathing raggedy. "I want you to finally fuck me…" he said very determined and maybe impatient as he looked up into the green hungry eyes.

"Holy fuck! Yes!" he literally growled loud with a nod, his body still goose bumped from the caresses of the big hands. His own probably tightened around the pulsing flesh the second he heard what Orion wanted. And he was very eager to finally give this man what he so much deserved...

Letting his dick go, he reached up to take the big head between his hands and kiss him a bit softer this time. Because Nergal needed a moment not to let the head rush of being able to have ALL of this big man for himself completely overwhelm him.

"I'll give you whatever you need," he promised, already backing towards the bed with Orion, stealing short, urging kisses from him. Nergal only let him go to lightly push him down on the mattress. "Just lay back and enjoy..." he winked at him, his now green eyes twinkling playfully as he grabbed one of Orion's ankles to take off his boot and socks, just to repeat the same on the other leg. But next he took his time stroking and digging into the long limbs through the pants, moving upwards slower than he planned. But he wanted Orion to really, really need it...

Getting up on his elbows the big man just watched. Maybe wiggled a little urgingly to make Nergal finally pull the fucking jeans off him... But seeing the naughty glint in the other's eyes, he groaned and dropped himself back on the bed. His own hand reached into his fly to rub his cock head.

"You kinky fucker... You want that shit that much, huh?" he looked up again and knew well what game he was into. "Please Nergal… Get the pants off me... Put my legs on your shoulders and fuck the hell out of me... Because I can't take it much longer..." he said calmly and purring. "Pretty please with cherry on top..." he smirked playing out the submission role with that on his part.

Moaning long and satisfied as fuck, Nergal grabbed the waistline of the jeans, watching Orion playing with himself for a long moment and started pulling the jeans down on the lovely and endless legs. "To be honest, I just wanted to enjoy every second of this, but the begging part you just did was a hot addition, I admit..." he chuckled and stood up once the useless pants landed on the floor just to push down his sweatpants too.

Standing there over the laid out big man, he reached down to lazily touch himself from the sight. "You are fucking gorgeous, you know that, right?" he asked on a softer voice, drinking in every majestic detail of Tomasz. Then his green eyes focused on the alluring hard meat that was fondled by a big hand and the next moment Nergal was on the move.

Pushing the thick muscular thighs open, he stroked their insides upwards while he took residence between them. The musky scent made him growl again and he pushed the big hand away to replace it with his and let his skilled tongue lick its length from base to tip, making sure to flick it around and under the sensitive head while watching Orion's reactions.

The growl the big man gave out was worthy on a record... Deep and lustful, a bit like a dying beast… which died of bliss of course.

He gasped for air and looked up to see how Nergal was licking his jumping meat nestled between his legs and he had to moan long again from the sight.

"You're not so bad looking yourself like this either... I love the new toned muscles on you..." he whispered to gently caress the short hair and shoulder of the smaller man. His big heavy paw was moving with tender love and adoration against the tanned skin. His legs moved more open and he slightly bucked his hips to urge Nergal to do more.

"Put a lot of work in that and I'm proud of it too. I feel much better," he said on a nonchalant voice in-between licks and kisses against the tasty meat. "You are just as tasty here as you promised..." he chuckled pleased from that fact and also Orion's reactions.

He understood the unspoken urging so he then began fondling the heavy balls with one hand, the other going around the base of the big meat to steady it so he could wrap his already red lips around the leaking shaft and suck it deeper and deeper with each eager bob of his head. He was enjoying this just as much as Orion and he gave voice to that with moaning around the hard dick, letting his voice vibrate around it to add to the big man's pleasure.

Oh, Orion enjoyed it very much. He closed his eyes and focused on feeling and enjoying every slurp of the eager velvety tongue and the pressing slim fingers on his already tightening balls to the fullest. He had to admit it that it showed on Nergal that he had experience in sucking cock... Maybe even talent for it also... And Tomasz already was a huge fan of his art. "Nergal... Don't make me come..." he panted panicking and looked up when he felt just how quick that familiar pressure was building up in him. "I want to feel you," he swallowed fisting his hand in the short hair "....Please..."

Hearing the now more honest plea to slow down and feeling his hair being lightly pulled, Nergal showed some mercy and slid his mouth off Orion. He chuckled lightly (and proud of himself) and sent a longing look at the glistening cock. "Fuck, you are beautiful... I'll have to let you come down on my throat some time..." he murmured, stroking along its length and to give some time for Orion to recover, he quite literally climbed over his body half-way to reach the nightstand, searching for the lube.

Of course Orion held the slimmer body to him at once. He ran down his hands till the small round ass and growled as he grabbed it hard, pressing Nergal closer to himself. "You are such a tease... Like always…" he scoffed leaning up to playfully bite into Nergal's shoulder.

His moan turned into a giggle as he rubbed himself against the big body and pushed his ass against the firm hands. For a moment he even closed his eyes from the bite and just enjoyed it.

"I aim to tease... and please," he purred and moved a bit so he could steal a long and deep kiss from Orion, his body never stopping with the rubbing and damn, by then it felt amazing for his own cock to find some friction against the hot skin of his man.

"How long was it that you were fucked?" he asked on a light tone once he forced himself to break their kiss and crawl back down between the meaty thighs. His mouth immediately went to kiss and suckle on the nice pair of testicles.

"Hmm... Four years ago, I think… Not that I haven't done anything like that since that…" he smirked and winked looking down at Nergal. Then let out a long wobbly breath as those perfect lips found his balls. "Give it to me... I'm a big boy. I can take it. And want it," he tried to joke some more but his words really said that he wanted Nergal.

"Oh I'll give it to you nice and hard, just was curious if you were a kinky big boy lately..." he winked up at him while he was already warming some lube on his palm before he slid his slick fingers down between the firm butt cheeks to smear it all over.

He growled hungrily as they found the tight opening, rubbing it rhythmically. "Let me see you. Pull your sexy legs up some more..." he asked hoarsely, eyes already glued down there, his other hand on the back of a thigh helping Orion move.

"I never said I don't like sex... Or have imagination to use it when I'm single…" Orion said and holding his legs under his knees, he pulled them back to let Nergal see and finally touch him some more. "Don't need much preparation… Not out of use... And I want you to take me..." he whispered and started to slightly shiver too. He meant every word, he was dreaming of this for so many times by then…

"Fuck... you have no idea how many times I imagined you saying such things to me even when I wasn'tsingle..." he grunted and watched as his two lined up fingers began pushing into the gorgeous hole. The hot tightness caused another louder moan from Nergal and he looked up at the beloved face swimming in pleasure as he soon began to finger him in earnest.

By then he was very impatient too and had his fun. The only thing taking over his mind was the need to bury himself into this smoking hot and amazing man. He's been waiting for this for so long that he nearly was a bit scared behind all the nonchalant funny facade to do this right. Maybe this was his only shot and he wanted to make this as memorable for Orion as possible.

So as soon as he deemed the big guy ready for more, he quite literally took matters in hand and slicked himself up just to position his tip to the right place. Then watch nearly in awe just how easily he was sliding deeper and deeper into his friend.

From the second those also very talented fingers entered him, Orion was busy to pant, sigh, moan and curse in his pleasure. When Nergal finally got over him again and he could feel the pulsing wide cockhead enter him and rub his inner walls so… magically, he dug his strong fingers into the other man's skin as he held him close. He was pushing back and slowly moving his hips to urge Nergal to start to fuck him. He was just moaning with closed eyes and parted lips, face flushed as the shivers of joy took over him even more.

"Goddammit, you are so perfect! Love seeing the pleasure on your face... Beautiful!" Nergal groaned, loving the pain the firm grip of the strong fingers caused. He was going to bruise for sure, but he didn't mind.

Nergal felt like completely losing his mind in that maddening tightness and from the wanton way Orion was moving back against him. It resulted in the harder and faster bucking of his hips, like it was requested from him.

Being in Tomasz was much better than he could’ve ever imagined and he felt his whole being on fire from it. Gripping his friend’s legs, he finally put them onto his shoulders and watched himself slide in and out of the wet hole with louder and louder moans of pleasure. That visual paired with the feeling was worth all the waiting...

"You feel so good..." Nergal grunted and leaned more forward to find the perfect angle, his small ass moving relentlessly as their bodies were slapping together with those exciting wet sounds, mixed with some Polish curses.

"You feel much better than I imagined. So perfect…" Orion breathed and pushed himself up on one elbow to be able to get closer to pull down the shorter man for a love-filled kiss. His strong thighs were pressing more onto Nergal's shoulders as he circled his hips and groaned into the kiss. His whole body jerked in a small wave of a blissful cramp.

Chuckling then moaning into the kiss from all that, he jabbed Orion's prostate repeatedly while staying close to him. "You are more flexible thanks to yoga than you look. Don't ever stop with it!" he grinned and kissed him hungrily again.

His slimmer body was glistening with sweat by then, heart beating fast as blood and lust was starting to blur Nergal's vision. The bed was lightly creaking under his hard and fast thrusts, his cock leaking like crazy into the welcoming ass. He just fucking loved how easily he was sliding in and out of that still tight hole.

To muffle his louder moans, he moved his lips down to the thick neck and bit into Orion's shoulder, the nails of one hand digging into a thigh, the other fisting around the sheet for the last merciless attack. He was so damn close and felt like going nuts in any moment.

For Orion the world vanished. Only Nergal... his scent, his moves, his bites, his whole being and the sound of the low curses and moans with the heavy panting existed.

He let his head drop back and pushed out his ass harder to feel more and ease that burning inside him with this amazing man he was going crazy for...

Grabbing onto Nergal's ass and side to press him to that spot inside him, he groaned long and loud. Body tensing and back arching, he gritted his teeth as the most intense orgasm exploded over his body and his sperm shot up on Nergal's chest in his bent in half position.

The second he felt the fine ass tighten and pulse around his aching dick and Orion's sperm splash against his chest, Nergal bit him harder before forcing himself to watch the big man falling apart under him so perfectly it made his head spin knowing that he did that to him. He made Tomasz lose it like this.

That fact seemed to be the last push for the singer, so in the next moment he threw his head back and not caring who heard them, he yelled his pleasure into the room, making sure to fill his lover's ass up to the brim with his cum.

The orgasm was intense and blinding, completely overwhelming his body and mind and leaving him panting for air as he was holding onto that thigh like to dear life.

As he finally got some air into his lungs and could see more than the blinding white bliss, Orion moved his cramping up long legs from his man and with that let Nergal lay upon him as they were both still panting.

He kept caressing the shaking man, just enjoying the peaceful moments of their love for a little while longer.

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