The Things You Said
By: Rawiya

“Erm, wot was that,” Martin said as I glared at him. “No, look Dave, I need to call yoo back, okay? Yep, Bye.”

“Martin, why did yoo lie to me?” I said as my blood began to boil.

Martin turned his attentions to the windshield, at that moment he could not look me in the eye.

“Nick, I…” he stopped knowing that he’d fucked up.

“Yoo wot? Yoo said they had a row and now I hear that fuckin’ Gahan kissed John? Is he out of his mind? Simon is crazy in love with John, he would kill him if he found out.”

Again, his wild eyes met my greens. “ Nick, I know it was a crazy move but Dave has had a thing for John for quite awhile.”

‘And…’

“So wot, and besides doesn’t that bother yoo that the man that yoo ar in love with is going afta someone else?” Martin and Dave had been in item for years, even I was aware of that.

Martin slammed his hand against the steering wheel. “Yes, fuck yes, it bothers the hell outta me, but wot am I supposed to do, huh? Look Nick I’m sorry for not telling yoo the truth, I jus didn’t want to get anymore people involved in this.”

“Martin, despite the fact that I was not there to see the embrace doesn’t mean it does not concern me. John is my friend, we’ve known one anotha since we were tykes.”

“Yeah well, I was caught off guard. Sorry that I was not honest with yoo; now like I was saying…” he said while I started opening the door. “Where ar yoo going?”

“Erm home. We’ll chat anotha time…” I said getting out the automobile.

“Nick wait. The thing that went on between John and Dave should not stop us, right?”

Slowly, I turned around before taking another step on the staircase to my home. “Martin, as I stated, I am not one to act on lust or petty emotions. I need something mor concrete than yor fancying me. Besides, yoo and Dave have been togetha foreva, wot kind of man would I be to interfere?” That was true, not to mention that I had no romantic feelings about Mart.

Martin closed the door to his Mercedes. “Nick, yoo would not be disrupting that. I love Dave, always have.”

‘Why am I still talking with him, this is not important.’
“Martin, there is nothing more to discuss. The feelings here ar not mutual, I don’t have relations with people of whom I have no sexual attractiveness to.”

Although I was sure that stung, I needed to make my feelings clear. Moreover, I had enough male companionship that served me well at that moment.

Martin raised an eyebrow before looking down at the ground. “Well Nick, that did not stop yoo from accepting my kiss inside the car a minute ago.”

“Very true, but only because I was curious. Jus like yoo remarked earlier, I was caught off guard.” Martin did catch me when I was not thinking.

“Ah Nick, bullshit. It was more than that. Yoo returned the kiss…”

“No I did not, I accepted it then…”

Martin rolled his eyes, “then yoo fuckin came closer to me…”

His accusations were starting to get to me. Even though something did peak my interest, I would not let him know that.

“Martin, yoo moved into my personal space. Yoo ar fuckin’ delirious!” Quickly, I went up the last few stairs.

I heard his footsteps right on my heels. “No Nick, yoo ar. I mean, the way yoo took me in, shows that yoo might have liked wot happened.”

“Again Martin, yoo ar nuts if yoo took my kind gesture as intrigue.”

Martin laughed while trailing me inside my foyer. I picked up my mail off the table beside the doorway.

“A kind gesture? Ah Nick, how dumb do yoo think I am?”

‘Obviously not dumb enough to believe my fib.’

“Very. Now, I would really appreciate if yoo be on yor way. As I said, I am having dinner with my daughter. I need to get ready. If there is anything else yoo…” I said pushing him out my front entrance.

“There is Rhodes. We aren’t done with this conversation…”

“Oh but we ar Martin, this is null and void, the end. Please let’s not ruin a good friendship by entertaining something that isn’t really there. Even if I were into yoo, that would complicate things.”

“How is that Rhodes?”

As I stood there a minute pondering how to answer, I thought of the embrace we shared; it was quite nice. Not only that, I lied about not sleeping with anyone without attraction. I had done that several times: Simon, Warren…

“Look Martin, we ar two totally different people. As much as I like yoo as a friend, I feel that our personalities would clash. Yoo ar much more the wild one, while I am quite reserved. That would be the most glaring comparison…”

Martin chuckled, “Hmph, wot difference does that make, Rhodes.”

“Well, it makes a huge one, chum. As I said, this should not be a discussion we ar having, okay? I mean, Martin, even if by some strange reason I wanted that between us, how on earth could I be around Dave who does not like a man who has been my friend for ages, Simon?”

‘Not that it made a bit of difference but I needed to get him out of my house.’

“Dave has nothing to do with whom I fancy. And Dave doesn’t like Simon because he’s fat and can’t sing,” he laughed while shaking his head.

I stopped smiling when I heard Martin’s joke. “Excuse me?”

“Nick, Dave has neva been a fan of Simon’s for mostly those two reasons and well, I agree with him.”

‘I would have nothing of this idiot talking about a dear friend.’

“Martin, Simon is a brilliant showman and his voice has always gotten betta. Not only that, those off key melodies has made Juran an icon. Simon has won awards for his performances, wot has yor precious Dave won?” The insults were coming, I could feel it.

“Nick, awards don’t mean anything. Dave has got a lot more soul, passion, not to mention a beautiful voice.  Simon wishes he could carry a tune like Dave,” he rolled his eyes while putting a hand on his hip.

“He doesn’t need to Martin. Juran is loved a lot more than Depeche eva will be. No one gave two shits about Depeche. Who was on the covas of countless magazines, we were. Not Depeche fuckin’ Mode. FUCKING JURAN JURAN!” I had long hated that they were jealous of our success, such is the reason Martin and I weren’t closer.

“Ha! So, do yoo think that makes yoo betta Rhodes?”

“Um, well, yeah! Hell, is anyone trying to get Depeche into the hall of fame? NO!”

“Oh crissakes, who cares. Depeche has integrity, something that Duran doesn’t know how to spell.”

“Fuck yoo Martin! We do have it, we have always had it. I knew yoo were a little shit. We neva talked that much because yoo and that Fletcher bastard always hung together, probably sayin’ crude things behind our backs…”

“Yeah we surely did. We weren’t wrong either!”

“Fuck yoo wanker, get the fuck out of my house!” I’d had enough of Martin’s unkind words, he needed to go so I could get ready. Not to mention, why would I allow someone to disrespect me in my own residence.

Martin did not move, he stood there with a smug look. Softly he spoke, “Look at us Rhodes. We have been friends for the longest, we’re not supposed to argue like this…”

In the same tone, “Since yoo told me yor true feelings there will be no more friendship between us, Mr. Gore. I need yoo to leave now.”

Still parked in the same spot in my foyer, I trotted over trying to move him towards the door.

“Nick, c’mon, I know I said crude things…but…” we struggled with each other.

The anger inside me had taken over, “Martin, yoo…need to…”

Before I could finish my sentence, he grabbed me before pulling my head towards his, enveloping my lips once more. Immediately, I felt something in my groin.

“Nick no more fighting, yeah,” he said after finishing our embrace.

‘Damn…’

Martin’s kiss did intrigue me, moreover I had always liked making up afta having a row; hell Julie and I did it quite often.

As we met each otha’s gaze, I thought about what had transpired. His hand was still on the small of my back, the other on my cheek.

That did not dismiss though that he admitted to talking about Duran with that fucker, Fletcher. How could I even fathom being with someone who hated something that was so dear to me?

“Nick,” he breathed.

Just as we were about to enjoy each other’s lips again…

“Nick, SHIT!! Wot the HELL!” The voice of my good friend rang loudly in my ears.

‘Oh dear God, not…’

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