Chapter 21

The following day found Jim not too rested. And it was because of the lack of sleep, not the practice with Mick.

Once that was done, he retreated to his house and the second he was alone, his issues and overthinking and hurt feelings were back.

And his confusion. Most of all the confusion. He knew he had to really take a long hard look at himself and his feelings for Paolo.

He couldn't really deny the attraction between them. No question about that at least.

And Jim already felt that it wasn't just because of the bond. He found Paolo attractive and kind and helpful and all. He's been helping him too even when Jim was at his lowest and hated the world and life itself...

So after quite a few hours of tossing and turning in his bed, he woke up quite grumpy but with a resolve. After a coffee, a few cigarettes and a shower – and another coffee and a couple of more cigarettes just for good measure and encouragement – he was going to search for the angel to talk and clear things up. After all Mick was right. Communication was the key.

And even if Paolo wouldn't feel the same way and rejected Jim for good, they could still be friends or something, right? At least things would be clear and he would respect the guardian angel's decision and feelings...

So with that he soon focused on Paolo's presence which he kinda always felt in the back of his mind. It didn't take long to tune in on him, so to say, and Jim even felt something like his Corey's approval – or at least he thought he felt it – and headed down towards the beach.

That morning the golden guardian angel decided to enjoy his solitude by the sea. On the part of the protected area which contained a bit of the gorgeous Greek seashore with the unbelievably blue ocean endlessly moving the tides.

He was still thinking about Jim. The kiss in the desert and the scene with Sotiris. At least the godly pair made up. Of course, they’ve been mated for eons...

Paolo wasn't sure how to "go back to the others" and continue to prepare for the fights that they will have to face very soon.

Feeling Jim approaching him from afar, he thought it was now or never to say it all... Then maybe forget it all...

Jim knew when Paolo noticed without a doubt that he was heading his way and he swallowed hard and ran a nervous hand through his longer locks. Although the angel usually tried to guard his feelings from him as much as the bond allowed, he could still feel that Paolo was nervous too.

"Hi. Can I join you?" he asked him a bit unsure, his voice more like a mumbling.

"Yeah, sure. It's a free beach," Paolo replied low, digging his hands deep into his jeans pockets and just watched the tidal waves moving.

He pressed his lips together and thought he wasn't going to be the first to start the talking. He was still feeling hurt and not really from Seth fucking Jim. More from Jim not even having a clue about why it hurt him or why would it matter to Paolo.

Jim glimpsed shyly at the profile of the short bald man. He looked beautiful with his faint golden hue around him, he thought. The big biker opened his mouth a few times to say something then closed it each time. The uncomfortable silence was stretching between them and Jim felt more and more like an idiot and a coward or like a teen boy trying to talk to his person of interest for the first time...

Getting frustrated with himself, he finally sighed, his lifted hands in front of him as he was playing with a hairband on his long fingers. Averting his eyes from the hypnotic blue waves, he looked at Paolo again and finally blurted out what has been on his mind for a while.

"I like you..."

"Hmm..." Paolo hummed looking down at his sand-covered boots.

There it was... Kinda... Something that he hoped for all along to come out of Jim's mouth. And still the angel just didn't know how it could be.

"That's great. I like you too. But before the prom night we should go to the movies and McDonald’s, I think. Also, you should buy me extra fries to make me sure I take it seriously," he turned and tried to say it all in his usual happy-go-lucky joking way. But his words came out dripping with his bitter emotions. Like... okay... Now all is just okay all of a sudden?

Jim didn't know if he should feel hurt or snort with amusement. Instead he just felt... down.

"Look... I'm sorry, okay? You confuse me. I kissed you then you rejected my... advances and... okay, maybe fucking with Seth was a dick move, so to say," he now snorted "then you practically called me a whore – which I don't think I've been for a long while as it was the first time I had sex with anyone since Corey and I'm sorry if it hurt you. I'm a mess. Always been and probably always will be to some extent. And I suck at opening up about my emotions and I'm self-destructive and self-sabotaging at times and I'm still trying to comprehend all the changes my life and my body and self went through and in a way losing Corey and his self-sacrifice – which I fucking don’t deserve – and this whole new world around me where I have to be some kind of Messiah when I know shit about fighting and all the creatures that want me dead..." he paused to take a big breath. 

"And then there's the bond between you and me and it fucks me up on all kinds of ways too, but I know I don't like you just because of that and I don't know what you want from me and it's driving me crazy as it's always in the back of my mind because we share our feelings to some degree even when our walls are up, and I feel stupid and an asshole and sad and hopeful yet frustrated and I hate myself for always ending up hurting you... but... I can buy you a Happy Meal too. If that's what you want..." he shrugged at the end, ready to retreat and accept the rejection if it comes.

Paolo bit his lower lip and looked away. "I like you too. I'm... upset because... you don't even know... Like... don't even try to think about it…" he started low then inhaled long and deep to gather himself.

"I'm worse than you in opening up. I’ve always put up a smile to everything. I'm everyone's good whore guardian angel. You know... everyone's but no one's," he looked up at Jim trying to hold his poker face. "You kissed me… But before that you kept rejecting me and I promised that I will respect your emotions for Corey. Only that's why you let me help you. When you kissed me… I pulled back in fear that you will change your mind and blame me and say I don't respect that you don't want me like that," Paolo said that all in one breath before he could change his mind.

He felt done with everything. Bond or no bond. "I promised I’ll help you to become a fighter. And I will. You know... sharing energies with Seth already started evolving you further. So... I guess maybe it will work without me too and us doing such..." the angel shrugged feeling lost. The time he had shared with his Sun God came into his mind again. And all the love and care he got that made him feel special. "And I doubt you could find a McDonald's..."

Jim was trying hard to focus on what Paolo was saying as he hated feeling them both so sad. But things were never simple when it came to emotions – especially the emotions of such closed up men...

In his effort to understand and feel what Paolo was feeling, he even dropped his walls and caught that last thought, making his heart sink and without thinking he grabbed the angel's wrist to pull him against his much bigger body, long arms wrapping around him in a tight hug, hoping that he would accept it instead of pulling away.

"But Seth is not you. He is not my mate. You are," Jim murmured. "You are special to me already. Even without the full mating..."

Paolo swallowed as he was pressed to the tall man. His senses got filled with Jim's scent and the feeling of the long beard brushing to the side of his head and all the messed-up emotions inside Jim. He grabbed onto Jim's shirt and took deep breaths as his own walls crumbled down, leaving him vulnerable.

"I... Seth is a God... And it's okay. Just..." he hid himself to Jim's body. "I dunno... I need to learn to be more selfish I guess," he mumbled.

Finally he looked up and reached for Jim's nape to pull his lips closer to his, before he would say anything stupid.

Jim inhaled the angel just as deep and wanted to say something in return, but all that went out of his head once their lips met again. He inhaled sharply through his nose and his tattooed arms tightened around Paolo – maybe even lifting him a tiny bit up too as he kissed him back. He was kinda praying that this time Paolo wouldn't pull back, but then the magic of the bond fell on Jim's already there attraction and he licked along the seam of the angel's mouth to ask for permission to slide his tongue between the soft lips.

Paolo's golden wings fluttered and moved around their bodies. He parted his lips and let Jim's tongue half-way to roll around it.

Their connection kicked in even more and made the angel dizzy and feel the urge to get even closer to Jim and his energies. His palms opened and stroked along the broad chest, getting lost more in the kiss and just basking in the feeling of their energies.

Jim and his senses welcomed the golden wings around them, but he didn't open his eyes as he was way too deep in kissing the air out of the angel. Meanwhile he got dizzy too from the force of the piled up energies all of a sudden rushing at them as if they wanted to make up for the time the stubborn males wasted with staying apart.

The tall Nephilim moaned into the kiss from feeling the small hands stroking his chest, his own bigger ones sliding down to grab and squeeze the firm ass, just to press Paolo tighter against his awakening body.

"You feel what you're doing to me?" he whispered breaking the kiss just to kiss along the smooth jawline, his beard and mustache tickling it. Then he looked into the soft brown eyes. "Tell me to stop and I'll stop... But I don't want to..." he said with flushed cheeks, mismatched eyes and a slightly heaving chest, his bulge already evident while his greenish energies hugged the golden ones around.

"You are a tower, that's why you don't feel what you are doing to me... And if I ever reply to such a question with any signal to stop then shoot me…" Paolo panted with his cheek colored too. One of his sneaky hands went to the bulge of the Nephilim to take a good handful grip on it, moaning from what he felt there.

"Your place or my place? We can skip the movie… I can feel you are... serious and skilled," Paolo grinned. From how much he felt the affection and want from Jim, the angel’s kinky joking self made a comeback too. Also, a nice prediction to how dirty and fun the future could be for them.

Jim's chuckle turned into a moan from the firm grip on his junk and in return squeezed the small ass once more.

"Glad you can feel and finally believe that my intentions are true... and dirty..." he smirked wide, loving that they were finally on the same page. And it was true. He had to admit to himself that he wanted this. He wanted to become Paolo's pair to feel less... incomplete. And now he felt it strongly that Corey would want that and for Jim to be happy too... Now Jim finally believed and accepted that too.

"Gonna take you to my place and show just how serious I am about this..." he said and while kissing Paolo again, he spread his chestnut leather wings and took off to fly them to the summer house dedicated to him.

Paolo giggled and hugged Jim stronger, letting himself to be carried away. "Oh my… I seriously can't wait," he said while just as proving how skilled he was managed to pop the button open on Jim's jeans and dug his hand into the nice warmth. Truth was that all these happened on autopilot. He was used to react that way and did so as it was instinct.

But on the other hand, he wanted to be Jim's. His pair.... He was yearning to belong to someone and to have someone just for him. And probably the bond and his sleeping skills also urged him. And Paolo had to believe that Jim finally really made up his mind.

"Fucking hell..." Jim gritted his teeth as he felt the skilled hand going into his pants and it made flying in a straight line quite challenging... He could also feel some of Paolo's yearning to belong and it urged him to fly faster too.

Soon enough they were inside the house, slamming the door shut behind them while Jim leaned down to kiss the other man and a bit awkwardly peel their clothes off while they were backing towards the bedroom, leaving a trail of said clothes behind.

As he pushed Paolo's underwear off, he kissed along his neck, inhaling his unique scent deeply before laying the angel down onto the bed. Crawling over the much smaller body, he lined their cocks up and began grinding himself to the other man while looking into his eyes. "I won't change my mind. Will you?" he asked softly but bloody seriously too. "Do you want me for life? Because I want you. And there's no turning back if we do this..." he added, hoping like hell that the angel won't dance back but also wanting to give him the choice and get his consent if he says yes.

Of course, the light-headed kinky angel kept gigging on the zigzag flight of Jim. Then was busy to moan into that amazing kiss and to stumble to the bed with the big man. And even with his past experiences, he never felt so drawn and drunk on someone's closeness like he got so quickly on Jim's.

Looking up into the mismatched eyes and slightly moving his hips to Jim's moves, he licked his suddenly very dry lips. "I am very serious. Even if 'for life' is a very, very long time in our lives," he smirked. "But I want it. This, and you..." he said more seriously and lifted his head to ask for another kiss.

"Good. That's the answer I was hoping to hear," Jim grinned and obediently leaned down to give that kiss to Paolo, soon deepening it as he let himself get dizzier by the minute too as the golden energies surrounded him more. It was so very different than anything he has felt before with anyone. And he was glad for that as it made this even more special in his eyes...

His hunger for the guardian became evident quite quickly too, because soon he was kissing and licking his way down on the naked body, giving his attention to every inch of the bare skin as he was discovering his mate for the very first time. He knew it was kinda torture for both of them, but also something he felt he had to do. He wanted to give Paolo the worship and appreciation he so deserved while they kept tuning in on each other more and more. No wonder there, though, as they were opening up to each other and the bond that was deepening between them much faster than before.

Jim only paused when he reached the nice piece of meat and held it to take a good look of it. "Hmm... I think I won't have a problem with this part of you for the rest of our lives..." he joked grinning up at the flushed angel then started licking and gently sucking on the tip of said shaft.

It was torture indeed. Paolo was left breathless from all the attention and pampering from his... pair... He was busy moaning and caressing Jim's longer soft locks as he moved lower on him. "From what I felt in our... adventurous flight, I don't think I will have any problems either," he giggled in his usual way. Then dropped his head back and cursed. The way such intimate action felt for their heightened senses with the bond's effect just blew his mind.

Jim chuckled shortly from that comment then swirled his tongue around the sensitive tip and under it too, lapping up every drop of pre-cum along the way and moaning from the angel's taste. It was even better than he expected and only fueled his hunger further so he soon sucked more of the nice thick shaft into his mouth. His long fingers traveled lower to fondle Paolo's balls and caress his inner-thighs in turn.

Of course, Jim's senses were hypersensitive to everything, too, especially to Paolo's reactions and it became his mission to make his very much experienced mate fall apart and tremble for it...

His next step in that plan was to deep-throat the tasty cock a few times then expose the tight hole with moving the open legs into the right angle. A soft growl left Jim's throat as he drank in the inviting visuals and flashing up his mismatched eyes at him, started rimming his angel with delight.

"Now that is something to remember…" Paolo groaned forcing himself to keep his eyes open and on the Nephilim as he was working his hole so very perfectly that Paolo felt like no one ever did to him before...

He almost even voiced those thoughts but then got too lost in all and just moaned and mumbled some curses, hips moving with Jim's licks to urge him to do more.

Jim chuckled low, his hot breath puffing against the wet opening – probably adding to the sensations. He could kinda feel what Paolo was thinking and it made him purr satisfied. As a reward, he soon poked his tongue inside and didn't stop until he could swirl it around and groan from the taste.

"You're so fucking tasty... You make me want to eat you up and make you cum just on my tongue..." he grunted and playfully bit into one of the strong thighs while sliding a spit-slick long finger inside. As his beard and mustache kept rubbing against said thigh and he pressed kisses and sucked up a few hickeys on it, the Nephilim's runes started to glow and his powers began leaking from his body too.

"Show me how you move on my finger and I might give you another one..." he said low, all his attention on the bald man he wanted to feel so damn much, but still he managed to hold himself back – for both their pleasures.

Paolo just loved it all and voiced his pleasure loudly too. "That is an option too… I can do this for days probably…" he added to Jim's praising.

But again he turned serious as he felt Jim's powers that called forth more of his golden glow as well. It was like Jim wouldn't even need to ask... The short male was grinding on the long finger, moaning almost immediately. His powers were meeting up and mixing with the green immortal power easily. As if it was not the first time... and maybe for their spirits it wasn't...

Jim had to close his eyes for a long moment and moan from that too and he let his powers loose some more while lining up that promised second finger. He forced himself to open his eyes and watch the tight hole suck that up too and that's when he curled his fingers in search of that magical spot.

While doing so, he moved a bit up on Paolo's body, leaning on his free forearm to hover over the writhing body. Jim wanted to watch his reactions and feel those energies from closer as he began rubbing the angel's prostate rhythmically.

"Fucking hell of the ancients..." the angel cried out from the way Jim started to milk him. "Where did you learn that..?" he panted and kept moving on the magical fingers. Opening up to Jim and his energies even more, melting into the way their forces started to merge and trying to hurry up Jim through their bond.

Chuckling dirty, Jim kept that up while enjoying their merging powers too and letting it happen. There were no obstacles or second thoughts in him by then – his resolve was strong. And he wanted to amaze his new pair and make this memorable to him.

"Who said you are the only skilled one between us?" he winked at him with his golden-hazel colored eye. "I know, baby. Give me a sec..." he murmured onto Paolo's panting lips then stole a passionate kiss while pulling his fingers out.

Taking the lube from the nightstand, he did a quick job with wetting both of them then he positioned himself to the prepped hole, rubbing his tip against it teasingly a few times before starting to slowly push in.

The deeper he worked himself in, the longer his approving moans got while watching the glowing face of his pair swimming in pleasure. "Yes... So wonderfully tight... Fuck..." he groaned after taking a deep breath then rammed the last inches home.

The angel was swept away by just how Jim felt for him. He was utterly amazed and surprised... This really felt like the first time... It all was more and felt on a totally new different level for him.

He was with his pair and it felt wonderful and moving...

His legs moved around Jim's hips and pulled him even closer as he panted and moaned softly, his ass grinding to ease up for the big hard cock faster. "You feel so good... I never felt this way before...” he whispered flushed and caressed Jim's bearded face.

By then Jim was panting too and his long body was slightly trembling in an effort to stay as still as he could to give Paolo's body some time to adjust to his size. Some more curses left his lips then the look in his glowing mismatched eyes softened as he was caressed. He understood what Paolo meant and it made him swallow hard and fight some burning in his eyes.

Instead he pulled the legs around him higher so he could get closer to his pair too and began slowly rocking back and forth and circling his hips to somewhat ease up that maddeningly hot tightness.

"I feel the same... This is amazing..." Jim whispered a bit broken from all this but he let all these swirling emotions wash through him. This was another step in letting his past and his Corey go and move towards a future with his new mate. It stirred him up deeply, but he also knew that it was an important step. And he wanted it. He wanted his pair...

So fighting back his tears, he reached under his man to lift him off the bed. Jim quickly sat back on his heels and made Paolo sit on his lap – his cock never slipping out of him as he wanted to stay connected.

Putting his big hands on the firm ass, he gently started moving him on his hard dick as he moaned into another hot kiss, the quickly merging powers swirling around them.

Paolo was just as deeply moved as he sat on top of his man. Who was meant to be with him...

The angel’s golden wings spread and moved around them. Locking them from everything else into a protective bubble of the golden energy that was flowing freely through the taller male. What Paolo felt back made his own eyes water up and rub a few joyful and relived tears into the face and beard of Jim. He hugged the long neck stronger and moaned and said praising words to his pair as their pleasures took them higher.

Jim moaned feeling the wings wrapping them up and in response his own spread too to do the same and close the circle around them. It seemed that their powers waited only for that, because after that the swirling became like a whirlwind, washing over them in waves and pulsing through them over and over.

Their bodies were moving in perfect sync, no hesitation just fluid movements. They were quite literally melting into one body and soul and energies. And it was the most intense and amazing thing, like ever...

It rendered Jim speechless, but he didn't mind. He knew his pair would feel what he felt as their whole being synchronized, their hearts beating as one, their bodies quickly closing towards the final step: their release.

Almost drifting to half-consciousness by the powers rushing through them, melting them into one and changing them, Paolo felt slipping into another dimension. He was moving along with Jim faster and faster as their forces and bodies hurried them towards their release.

It was far beyond what either of them could ever imagine. Both of them were becoming pure energy and leaping from their physical body to change into something more while mixing up perfectly.

The Earthly vessels were functioning as they should, stimulating each other closer to the edge. Later as the effect of a successful mating, those vessels will transmute too. But right there and then the two creatures found the perfect and total percent of merging their powers and it resulted in an out of this dimension orgasm...

The smaller body was moving frantically with the bigger one under it. He leaned back with a guttural groan as the golden guardian angel powers rushed out from Paolo to ignite the Nephilim energies and with a bright explosion of those forces that probably could be felt clear from all parts of the sanctuary, he came hard on their rubbing together bodies, pulling his pair with him.

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