Chapter 12

Derek didn't immediately go to his family with his need for control. It was a little awkward to be asking it when the sole reason was sex. And since there were schooldays ahead with stolen moments as they hid their relationship form the world, it wasn't as urgent anymore. Except, his family knew him too well and they had guessed at what had happened so there was no hiding it for long. Talia had been the one to approach him and offer him to teach him.

"You're young Derek, and fighting isn't the way to handle this. You love him, don't you?" As always, the dark haired woman looked at him with a soft smile, a knowing smile. She could always smile as if she knew everything the entire world had to offer, and Derek was convinced that maybe she knew all that too.

"I do, but he's human. I will hurt him."

"Yes, you will. Unless you learn control. Find your anchor and you'll be able to be with him without harming him. You're seventeen now, it's time."

Derek knew he was late, because most werewolves had full control over themselves at fifteen but at sixteen Derek had still struggled with full moons and now that he had somebody to unleash his youthful hormones on, his control was fully shattered. It was time to know how, and it was time to not be a virgin anymore. Though the last part he wasn't that eager to share with his mother.

"Come, let's go, you're not going to learn it here," she glanced at Peter in the distance watching them. Her brother was deviant, always had been. And he was too eager to whisper lies in her son's ear and manipulate him. It was bad enough that he was one of Derek’s best friends. Some things Peter shouldn't be part of and maybe it was time to take some more memories from Peter, force him away from Derek before he would corrupt the innocence her sweet young beta still possessed despite his age. "Did you bring the Triskelion?"

"Mom, you know that doesn't work for me. I've tried it so often and the mantra too," Derek sighed as he held the metal disk, following his mother and alpha as she was leading them deeper into the woods. Most betas really did do well with the disc and mantra until they had found their anchor. But not Derek, he had to be different again.

"That's because you already decided on an anchor and you don't even know it. So today we're going to find out what it is."

Talia led her son along a barely there path among the trees, moving with ease and a kind of gracefulness that could tip off a good observer that she was more than human and very much one with the forest around her. The silence was mostly comfortable between the two until they reached the destination on her mind.

It was a small clearing with ancient rocks in different sizes placed in a circle. At first glance it didn't look that orderly so it hasn’t drawn the attention of human hikers. Being on the vast Hale property also helped keeping nosy people away from there. Either way, it was an important place for the Hale family. Two smaller telluric currents converged in the middle of the circle, amplifying the energies in the ground and rocks. For as long as the Hale history in Beacon Hills went back, their family held rituals, council and full moon gatherings at this place. It was also a good place to meditate and for the young to learn control over their wolf side. This is where Talia had learned hers from her pack alpha mother many years back.

"Join me," she said to her son and gracefully sat down in the middle of the clearing. She knew that meditation wasn't something that would work on centering Derek and help him find his anchor, so they had to use a different approach. "Tell me about him," she looked at the teen with a fond expression on her face. She was a proud and strong alpha who led the pack with a firm hand, but could be gentle when needed and there was no doubt that she did everything to protect her family and children, even if often she might came off as unapproachable or cold.

The young teen sighed as he joined her, feeling the currents thrumming under them with that distant electrical current. At least she wasn't forcing him into meditating, which she and his dad had tried in the past without much use. Laura and Cora had been able to use it, but not Derek. The boy had a stubborn mind and was too restless to be able to subject his mind to calming it. Peter had suggested using his anger as anchor, an idea Derek hadn't used yet because he was not sure if allowing even more anger in would be a good thing.

"He's like this breath of fresh air but a tornado at the same time. His mind is so busy, it never quiets and he sees everything, he connects things together fast, too fast, he's too smart. And he talks a lot." Derek could gush on about Stiles for a long time so asking him to tell Talia about his crush was an easy task. It relaxed him immediately, made him smile as he thought about the other boy.

"He's bossy. Not on purpose, he just... doesn't think about it and he makes me unable to breathe when he smiles at me. He makes me want to make him smile like that all the time, to know that I'm the one putting that smile there. I want to look into his eyes and give him the world because he's my world, mom. We only gone out a few times and he's..."

"The one. Oh, Derek..."

The teen looked puzzled. "The one....? Why can't I control myself around him, mom? Why does he make me feel hungry when food isn't what I want?"

Talia's smile became warmer and broader and she maybe looked a little bit moved too. "Because you're hungry for his soul, his very being. It's how potential soulmates feel before having an established mate bond to them. Stiles can become your mate for life, Derek," she explained. "It is rare to find them at such a young age and definitely something that's exciting and can interfere with the control of our kind very much. That's why you lose control around him so easily."

She gave her son an understanding look, her smile softening as Talia reached out with one hand to rest it on Derek's smooth cheek. She knew Derek was clear with the fact that werewolves mated for life if they chose to. But that there were more potential mates as well and they didn't have to bind themselves to any of them if they chose not to. Although the urge to do so with someone who completes the wolf so perfectly is always strong and most choose to go for it. After all, who wouldn't want to be happy and complete like that?

"How do you feel deep down when you think of Stiles?" she asked, lowering her hand onto the back of her son's. The alpha had monitored Derek while he was talking about the boy and she had a strong suspicion, but Talia wanted to lead her son to put things together on his own.

Soulmates. Stiles was a potential soulmate for him! Derek’s mind was reeling because sure, he knew his love was deep but it had been deep for Paige too so he didn't think his mother would even take him seriously, let alone tell him that the human was important to him. If he let it. That's what she was saying, that it was up to him if he wanted this to be as serious as it could be, because there were a lot of potential mates in their lives, and it was always a choice. Or that's what he thought. Feeling this deeply about somebody didn't feel like a choice, it felt like a need.

"I need him more than I need food or water. I need him. And I know he needs me too." Derek needed Stiles in his life and now that he had him, he didn't want him to go away ever again. His eyes widened because deep down he had already made that choice about what he wanted, already decided that his life wasn't the same without the boy he barely had in the first place.

"Oh god mom, what did I do? What if he doesn't want this, us? I made him my life." Anger wasn't his anchor, Stiles was. For probably a while as Derek had pined over him from afar and watched him sleep night after night.

Talia's hand lightly squeezed her son's in a comforting and understanding manner. "You can feel into him with your senses. See how deep his feelings for you go. But you said that he needs you too. You had told me that he's been pining over you for nearly a year too but was too shy to do anything about it. That in itself is a good sign. And from what you just told me about Stiles, it seems that he's a clever boy."

For a moment it was hard to read her expression as she pulled her hand back and sat there thinking her words through. She had always taught to her children and the pack members that their most important rule was to keep their secret of being a werewolf. If things were already this serious between Derek and Stiles and the sheriff's boy was really this clever, that might lead to a different conversation with her son in the near future. About revealing that secret or not. It depended on how things were going to form between the boys and how trustworthy this Stiles will prove to be.

"You don't have to panic, Derek. Take things one step at a time. First you have to learn control so you can be with him the way you want to be," her expression softened again, giving Derek a knowing look. After all, she was a teenager once too. "Let things take their course, form as they should be. You don't have to rush into a mating with him, you can decide later once you two have been together for a while. And besides, he can stay your anchor even if you choose not to mate with him. We should come here to talk about these things as your relationship develops. You are just at the beginning. Give everything some time, sweetheart. I'm here to help you. Do you have questions?"

"How do I… I mean..."

Derek had an easier time talking to his dad about sex. Not because he didn't think his mother would understand but she was also his alpha. And it was just more awkward. "When we kiss it's fine but when we go further, like his hand under my shirt, I lose control."

The alpha smiled and knew she had to be glad her son had been a responsible young teen who was still a virgin at seventeen but he was at that age where he was going to want to change that. With how serious it was with Stiles, it most likely would happen with the boy. "When he does that, it feels good, right? And your hormones and body go into this crazed state because you want him. You have to remember that he's your anchor, don't focus on the sex alone, focus on him fully."

Right, Derek nodded, he could do that, that wasn't so bad. If that was it, then he could do this, it might take a few tries but with the way he had explained himself, Stiles would give him that time. "Okay, I can totally do that."

"Yes you can. And remember honey, you're a born werewolf, so there will be a knot forming."

"Oh god, mom! We already had that conversation once!"

"But with a boy you can also do it differently so he won't notice that."

"MOM!" Mortified, Derek jumped up, face red. He so didn't want his mom thinking about what positions he would do it with Stiles to prevent the knot problem, this was not cool! "We're sooooo done!"

Talia just chuckled on that as she slowly stood up too and took a deep breath to scent the surrounding forest. A habit of hers to check if everything was in order. It was, so she looked at her embarrassed son again.

"I know it's usually strange to talk about this topic with your parents, but you can ask your father about these things if that makes it easier for you to get answers to your questions. Or if you preferred not to, I can give you a book on coming of age wolves that can explain all the changes in your body. It also details this and the mate topic too. Would you prefer that?" she asked, tilting her head slightly to the side, looking and feeling quite amused about Derek's embarrassed reaction.

He reminded Talia so much of the time when Derek's father, Jake was a teen, all shy and embarrassed around her. Those were the times and she always remembered back fondly on them. The clumsy attempts at courting her, how he thought he was all cool in his leather-jacket while Talia could see through that facade easily. He saw him in Derek in more ways than one, even if people said he looked exactly like her.

"There's more to know about mates?" Derek’s voice squeaked a little in surprise because yeah, maybe the book would be helpful with sex because he really didn't want to discuss that with either parent at the moment. Not until he had done it and was confident about it, not now. It was bad enough he couldn't even jack off in the house without everybody knowing about it.

"There's a lot to know about mates. So you might want that book. And I know you don't want me to say it but I wasn't joking about the knot, Derbear. It’s already a lot for a girl and with a boy you have to be really careful. When you're older you will be able to control it but not yet. And you have the toys we gave you for your first rut."

"Yessssss," Derek sighed heavily. The toys had been unused in his closet, since he didn't have his first rut yet and of course there was no rut partner so his parents had made sure he had enough to be able to lock himself in his room when it came. "I haven't had my rut yet, you know that."

"I know," she smiled fondly, reaching out to ruffle his hair. Her middle child was late in everything and that was fine with her, there was no rush in growing up. Girls were quicker to grow into adults, they matured sooner. And after Kate Argent, she hadn't been sure if Derek even would be interested in doing anything since he hadn't seem to want anything to do with sex. When he announced his crush on Stiles, she had been relieved there was something going on, and it didn't matter to her that it was a boy. They had all encouraged him, even her parents despite being old fashioned. They adored their grandson too much.

"It might come sooner when you're more actively using your hormones." Standing up to join Derek, she latched her arm in his. "At least we don't have to worry about little teen parents, because you two can't get one another pregnant."

"We're not all you, mom." Derek knew Talia had gotten pregnant with Laura when she wasn’t even an adult herself, and Jake hadn't been the father. It had broken up their teen romance quickly but not for long since Laura's father hadn't stuck around, while Jake had. So a few years later Derek was born as Jake had moved in with the Hales and Laura saw him as her dad too even if he wasn't biologically hers. Talia had taken over the alpha spark from grandma at an early age when grandma had an accident and had technically died long enough for the spark to transfer. And alphas were very fertile so the teen mom thing hadn't been as shocking to the Hales.

"And I'm a beta so I don't have to worry about kids as long as I didn't have my rut." Derek was sterile until his first rut. And then he'd have as much chance of knocking a girl up as humans did so it was fine. Not that he wanted to be with a girl right now.

Talia just chuckled on that remark about her, but didn't get offended. It was true, after all. Walking towards the house with her arm linked with Derek's, she nodded and smiled. "That's right, Derbear. And this... finding a possible mate is a very exciting time in your life. You should enjoy it and not worry too much about the hows and whys. Of course, keeping your true nature a secret is advised for the time being. But you're a clever boy, you know that on your own. I'll get you that book once we are home. I just want you to know that you can come to me or to your dad with any questions that might come up. And remember to ground yourself when you're around Stiles, okay?"

She smiled satisfied when she got a quiet nod from her slightly blushing boy.

Kids. They grow up so fast, she thought as they continued their walk.

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